Another Life Change

It's been a long while since I've posted. Much has been going on and my life has taken a left turn onto a new road.

It has been an adjustment with the arrival of our new Cub into our life and unfortunately, it hasn't always been easy. In fact, it's been rough. Only those closest to me know how rough it has really been for me - I've struggled with my own emotional and mental issues becoming a new mom and finding balance with my new role.

So it is with sadness and acceptance, that I finally put it down in writing that my life as a wife to my Pappa Bear is over. It involved a mutual discussion, a struggle with the acceptance that I have once again failed to make a marriage work - and then determination to move forward and start putting one foot in front of the other to start a new life.

It has been quite an adjustment for everyone involved, including my little Bear Cub. It's been five months since the decision and four since we have been physically separated. I've noticed quite a change in Cubby - he's becoming more of the happy-go-lucky kid that I've known he always was, and it's been a learning experience for both of us.

This is something I've never envisioned for my life, for our little family of three - but this is how life sometimes shakes out. One thing I've learned from becoming a Mom, you have to be flexible, learn to adapt and keep moving forward.

Here's to a new life!

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Eating Healthier?

So, I think my participation in the Body After Baby Challenge is a bust. BUT I will continue to keep on and try to make the changes for a healthier and fit lifestyle. I had to give this some serious thought and because Samantha was wondering where we all had disappeared to. So here's the truth:

Although I was inspired by Samantha's positive and uplifting pep talk, I could not find the motivation. I cannot even explain why because it'll just sound like a bunch of excuses. AND after I inhaled eight (yes, I said EIGHT) donuts in two days, I realized I had a problem.

I've lost my willpower. Where did it go? It was there before Cub, it was present during my short, enjoyable journey growing the Cub, and somewhere after his arrival it disappeared! But thanks to some encouraging words (once again by Samantha), I'm stepping back up and getting on the wagon!

Starting with TODAY! Here's what I've consumed so far:

Breakfast: 1/2 Breakfast Burrito (eggs, bagon, potatoes, cheese, salsa)
Snack: Kashi Go Lean Chocolate Almond Bar
Lunch: Marie Callender's Pasta Al Dente Cavatappi Genovese

Have you TRIED one of these Marie Callendar's Pasta Al Dente meals? It tastes SUPERB and it only 400 calories! Granted it is loaded with sodium (1180mg) but I don't normally salt my food so I figure it's a wash, right? AND we've started to add in evening/nightly walks with the Cub into our routine after dinner. So, wish me luck!

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Not the Biggest Loser...

Samantha over at Mama Notes is doing a GREAT job trying to motivate all us Mamas to lose those extra pounds since having baby (or even before). I have to give her props and kudos because she truly is an inspiration and has many glowing words of praise and support for all of us. But for me, I cannot fathom why I cannot get into the spirit. I joined up in the hopes that this would motivate me to do more, eat better and restart my daily mile walks I took during my pregnancy.

Unfortunately, my plan has backfired. I feel like a loser, a disappointment and definitely not in the top running to become the "Biggest Loser". *sigh* The reality is, I'm under stress/pressure from work and am still trying to juggle working and being a mom. I have no idea where my 'wife' role went to. I'm feeling increasingly frustrated with the hubs and I can't figure out why.

Not to mention, I accepted the Body after Baby Challenge the week before I went away for my annual girls getaway weekend (which I swear I gained 5lbs!) and now here I am on vacation. It is so hard to stick to a diet/exercise plan when you're on vacation!!!

Anyway, all this to post and say - THANKS SAMANTHA but not sure how the rest of these weeks will go for me...

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